I SERIOUSLY HURT MY BACK AND HIP AND AS YOU MAY KNOW I HAVE TO POST PONE SCHOOL TILL MARCH...NOW SHE HARDLY WANTS TO TALK TO ME...I KNOW SHE'S PISSED OFF THAT I'M IN SCHOOL NOW...I WAS SUPPOSED TO BE IN SCHOOL WED WHICH IS MY WIFE'S DAY OFF AND CAUSE OF MY BACK I WAS UNABLE TO ATTEND...SHE EVEN ADMITED SHE WAS PISSED CAUSE SHE WANTED TO BE ALONE..WHICH IS COOL I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND BUT SHE ACTS LIKE IT'S MY FAULT...SHE KNEW I'VE HAD NUMEROUS PACK PROBLEMS IN THE PAST BEFORE I MET HER...NOW WE RARELY TALK AND WHEN WE DO IT'S TENSE AND SOMETIMES LEAD TO AN ARGUEMENT...TALK ABOUT A HEAD SCRATCHER...I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOWARD TO GO TO SCHOOL NOT HAVE PREVIOUS AND NEW BACK AND NECK PROBLEMS THAT KEEP ME FROM DOING MOST SIMPLE TASKS: WALKING (CAUSE EVERY STEP FEELS LIKE SOMETHING'S GRINDING), CAN'T STAND FOR MORE THAN 15 MINS BEFORE THE PAN BECOMES INTINSEFIED (CAN'T SPELL), DRIVING: MY DR AND CHIRO DO NOT WANT ME TO DRIVE.

I AM LIKE A CRIPPLE AND SHE'S DISAPOINTED WITH ME? I HAVE FAILED SO MANY TIMES BEFORE SHE PROBABLY THINKS I AM GIVING UP. NO WAY AM I GIVING UP! IT'S MY LAST CHANCE AT A DECENT FUTURE...97% OF THE TIME I DON'T THINK SHE LOVES ME OR WILL CONTINUE TO LOVE ME. I HAVE A SAYING "NEVER FORGIVE AND NEVER FORGET!" SO I AM A PERSON WHE BELIEVES THE PAST REFELCTS OUR FUTURE.

I AM SO MENTALY TIRED TRYING TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO FIX THESE THINGS. I'M A SHIT HUSBAND BECAUSE I BELIEVE SHE SHOULD BE WITH SOME ONE ELSE, NOT SOME BROKE LOSER WHO WILL GO NOWHERE. I HAVE MY DOUBTS ABOUT WHETHER OR NOT I'LL BE ABLE TO PASS...NOT THE SMARTEST PERSON AROUND...

EVERYTHING DEPENDS ON MY GRADGUATION, SO TALK ABOUT STRESS...BETWEEN A MARRIAGE WITH 2 PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW EACH OTHER OR TRUST EACH OTHER, THEN I GOT SCHOOL WHERE I NEVER DID VERY WELL...BOY I F*CKING HATE LIFE!